Distractions

I'm just trying to distract myself so I don't go downstairs and binge. Please feel free to ignore this.


I am or have been:
[ ] anorexic
[x] ednos
[x] bulimic
[ ] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[x] thirsty
[x] drinking something
[x] under 100lbs
[x] fasting/starving myself

People:
[ ] ask if I'm anorexic/bulimic
[x] have called me fat
[ ] have said I'm skinny
[ ] have said I'm ugly
[x] have said I'm pretty
[x] spread rumours about me
[ ] force me to eat
[x] say I eat too much
[ ] wish I'd eat more
[x] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic/ednos


I wish:
[x] I was thin
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn't have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 110lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn't fat
[x] I was pretty
[ ] I could stop being anorexic/bulimic/ednos


I love:
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference when I'm fasting
[ ] shaking
[x] feeling airy
[x] losing weight
[ ] being anorexic/bulimic/ednos
[x] green tea
[x] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself


Appearance:
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes
[x] I have many scars
[x] I wish my hair was a different colour
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour
[ ] I have a tattoo
[x] I am self conscious about my appearance
[x] I have/had braces
[ ] I wear glasses
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scar free
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger
[x] I have more than two piercings
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[ ] I have freckles


Family:
[x] I have sworn at my parents
[x] I've run away from home
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house
[x] my biological parents are together
[ ] I have siblings less than one year old
[x] I want to have children one day
[ ] I've had children
[ ] I've lost a child
[ ] I can't have children


Relationships:
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I'm engaged
[ ] I'm married
[ ] I've gone on a blind date
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper
[x] I miss someone right now
[x] I have a fear of abandonment
[x] I've cheated in a relationship
[ ] I've been divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship
[x] I've been 'the other woman'
[ ] I've been engaged


Sexuality:
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher
[x] I'm a cuddler
[x] I've kissed in the rain
[x] I've hugged a stranger
[x] I've kissed a stranger


Bad times:
[x] I've consumed alcohol
[x] I regularly drink
[ ] I can't swallow pills
[ ] I can swallow numerous pills at a time without water
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression
[x] I shut others out when I'm upset
[ ] I take anti-depressants
[x] I'm anorexic/bulimic/ednos
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need to
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose
[x] I'm addicted to self harm
[x] I've woken up crying
[x] I've lost weight
[x] I've gained weight
[x] my weight holds me back
[x] weight consumes me
[ ] I'm at my thinnest
[ ] I'm at my biggest
[x] I've lost weight and kept it off
[ ] I've lost weight but gained it back
[x] my weight affects my mood
[x] I weigh myself daily
[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[x] I thrive on compliments
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[x] I feel happy when I'm hungry
[x] I get depressed after I eat
[x] I've skipped a meal
[x] I've thrown food away
[x] I've spat food out
[x] I've fasted
[x] I've taken diet pills
[ ] I've used laxatives
[x] I've purged
[x] I exercise
[ ] I exercise so I can eat
[x] I work out secretly
[ ] I work out daily
[ ] I've fainted from exhaustion


I've consumed:
[x] weed
[x] cigarettes
[x] alcohol
[x] diet pills
[x] pain killers
[ ] sleeping pills
[ ] anti-depressants
[ ] ecstasy
[ ] LSD
[ ] mushrooms
[ ] speed
[ ] cocaine
[x] other


Me:
[x] I keep my eating habits a secret
[x] I look at thinspiration
[x] I collect thinspiration
[x] I count calories
[x] I've had negative intake days
[x] I avoid food
[x] I hate food
[x] I love food
[ ] I want to be this way
[ ] I don't want to be this way
[x] I wish I could have more control
[x] being thin is my top priority
[ ] I am in treatment
[x] I am doing this for me
[x] I am doing this for someone
[x] I am doing this to prove myself