Summer at last

I was planning to delete my last post from yesterday because I thought it would seem really pathetic and stupid, but after all the supportive and understanding comments I feel so much better; you're all so amazing.

Today was such a lovely day. The weather has been beautiful, so hot and sunny without being unbearable.
I went out and met people to sunbathe and I wore my Levi shorts and a cropped t shirt. The shorts were high waisted so none of my stomach was showing with the top though, I'm definitely not prepared for that yet. I was terrified about going bare legged, I could swear I saw my legs jiggling whenever I walked, but I got used to it and actually felt quite good about myself by the time I'd walked to town.
When I saw my friend she walked over and said: "Oh my god, you look so skinny. You're legs are really thin." She's my supportive friend who knows most of what I'm doing to lose the weight so it really meant a lot that she said that.
I was still so pale though, I didn't feel that bad when it was just the two of us because I was slightly more tanned than her but, later I met another friend who's just come back from two weeks in Portugal. She was so tanned I looked like a snowman next to her, plus she's got skinnier legs than me. But I still had a great day sunbathing and planning our girls holiday for next Summer. I haven't been this happy for such a long time.
Plus I forgot how great the hot weather is, I wasn't hungry at all today. But the time I got home at half seven I felt sick at the thought of food and had to force myself to eat the couscous salad my mum had made me for dinner.
Tomorrow me and my supportive friend are planning to meet up at about 12 and sunbathe all day, possibly drink some alcohol in the sun, because that way we're hoping to overcome any hunger. My friend's looking so skinny recently, she told me she hasn't eaten any meals for about three days and she finds that drinking one glass of wine at lunch time fills her up and ruins her hunger for the whole day. I know she's still eating some food though because we bought ice creams when we were together, and she invited me to a meal tomorrow, so I don't have to worry about her getting ill. I'm really happy for her.

I should stop rambling now, I'm going to catch up on everyone's posts then do something productive like read a book, I'm really in the mood to read a good book. I really hope this mood lasts.

Hope everyone else is well and had a good day.